“Never,” I promised.
We spent Sundays at the farmers market and at the park. When he was six, I took the photo I’d carried to Miami—the one with his big grin under the magnolia tree.
“Someday I’ll buy you a big house so you won’t work so hard,” he told me. I held tight to that promise.
Years passed. Robert studied business and moved to Miami. I was proud. He met Holly at a conference. At first she was friendly, even affectionate, calling me “Mom.” Then, slowly, everything changed. Calls became brief. Visits disappeared. There was always an excuse.
I kept quiet, thinking it was temporary.
Then came the wedding. I had saved twenty thousand dollars to help them. Yet on the wedding day, Holly’s parents sat in the front row, the bridal party in the second, and I – the groom’s mother—was placed in the third.
The mother-son dance? Holly changed it. Robert danced with her, then with her mother. I got two short minutes at the end.
“Holly wanted something modern,” he explained.
“It’s fine,” I li:ed.
After the wedding, he drifted further. Phone calls lasted minutes. Holidays were “complicated.” When Ethan was born, I was asked to leave after just three days so Holly’s mother could replace me.
Still, I tried. I sent gifts. I commented on their photos. I once spent nearly nine hundred dollars mailing him his favorite birthday cake. His response: Thanks, Mom.
I spent Christmases alone, staring at the old picture of six-year-old Robert, wondering where I had failed.
Yet I kept hoping.
That hope carried me onto the bus to Ethan’s birthday. But when Robert asked me to leave his home, I realized this wasn’t a phase. My son had chosen a world where I no longer belonged.
Back home, I cried for all the years I’d silenced myself for his sake. Then came the frantic 2 a.m. call asking for fifty thousand dollars.
He finally admitted he and Holly had made a disastrous investment, were being sued, and could lose their house. I asked why they didn’t turn to the bank or her wealthy parents. He said both had already said no.
“So I’m your last option,” I said. “Not your mother. Just the one person left who hasn’t refused you.”
He insisted we were “family.” I thought about the wedding, the gifts, the slammed door.
A mother’s love, I realized, isn’t a credit line.
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